breakfast before sex.

i didn't really expect to meet a boy at a bluegrass festival in lyons...especially because i was attending the festival with family friends. but...a few beers and tunes into the festival, i was my usual socialite-self, buzzing from booth to booth, dancing with different groups, and chatting with various other bluegrass lovers. while walking towards the beer tent, a dark, curly haired boy reached out his silver fat tire glass to cheers my own mug of ipa. his name was marco--he teaches in china. really, that should have stopped me from pursuing any form of romantic contact, but alas, it did not. we went for a walk next to the river, sat on the rocks together holding hands, and even shared an innocent peck on the lips. i mean...apparently, i went from attending a family function to a romantic getaway with a water view.
eventually, we had to say goodbye and go our separate ways, but not before exchanging numbers. we agreed to meet the next day for brunch, before he headed out of town. so, brunch we did, at snooze, denver's popular brunch-boozing place. we talked about everything under the sun--recent heartaches, long lost loves, family dramas, dreams, goals, hopes, regrets.
the thing is, i didn't like him...not even a little bit. i wasn't attracted to him in the slightest, i didn't like the way he looked at the world, and i disagreed with almost every aspect of his education philosophy. and yet, over drinks and breakfast, i was able to open up to him more than some of my closest friends. i told him things about myself that i have never, in my life, told anyone. the encounter ended sooner rather than later...i mean, i only have so many deep, dark secrets to confess. after breakfast, we shared a quick hug, exchanged numbers-mostly to be polite--and parted ways.
watching him walk away from my front door, i came to the conclusion that everything i did with him, is everything i need to bring into my actual relationships, with the boys i like. with him, i was laid back and fun, as usual, but i was also deep and emotional and serious and a little bit broken. in short, i didn't just give him fun; i gave him all of me. and i liked it.